Class of 1999

I feel like I blinked and a decade had gone by. I went to my 10 year high school reunion. As I put my earrings on at the beginning of the evening, I realized that I wasn't anywhere near where I thought I would be at this point in my life. No successful career, no husband and 2.5 kids. I am no closer to those things than I was 10 years ago. To top it all off, I was feeling like an ugly duckling. As I pressed my lipsticked lips together for the last once over in the mirror, I thought to myself, "Well, this is as good as it's gonna get." I wasn't looking down on myself, it's just how I felt. And that made me a little sad.

The reunion, itself, wasn't so bad. It wasn't great, but it was about what I expected it to be. We were at our tables, we were in our cliques. To say it wasn't great isn't really being fair. Maybe it was just the food that sucked. Seeing the girls was fun. I mingled, Diana won a camera. For the most part, 10 years hasn't done much. We're all still the same. We're loud. We like to have fun.

Afterwards, Dai and I talked about stuff over McNuggets. Like I said, the food sucked. That was probably the highlight. I like our catch-up conversations. Then Josh called me for "woman" advice. I told him I probably wasn't the best person to be talking to about this, but we did and I was more opinionated than I thought I would be. It was probably all lost on him. I think, as much as he hates this characteristic in me, he also will do what he wants to do regardless of what anyone tells him. Perhaps my own cynic view on life, love, and relationships is to blame, but I found it really difficult to have that conversation with him. I guess the ugly duckling feeling I had all night didn't help that any either.

Ten years went by way too quickly. And I'm wondering why I still don't have any of the things I thought I'd have by now. Things to think about. In any case, congratulations 99 Cougars. It was interesting....